Let your light Shine

Today is T-15 to my 40th Birthday and I feel like wrapping up in a blanket and ignoring everything because my allergies struck back. A trivial problem, but when you are trying to build up momentum any stumbling block can knock you back down.

One of the biggest problems we face is when we are judged for what we feel is a problem in our lives that when compared to other problems in the world seem trivial. Our problems are ours, and we have to deal with them as they face us.

Now, don't misunderstand me.  I am not saying it is ok to whine about our state in life or wallow in your own misery.  In fact, we have to do the exact opposite.


Whether big or small, obstacles will always crop up. Their severity is all too often dictated by our mood when we stumble upon them.  If we are at a particularly low point even the smallest thing can throw us completely off our game.

What is your light?

Our light is a combination of things.

Light Empowers

Whatever empowers you is part of your light.  Whether it is music, dancing, drawing, writing, cooking, baking, knitting, it is important for you to know it and have it at hand when the time comes.

One of my biggest recharging stations is music.  I love to listen to it, and even more to sing along. I don't have a good singing voice, but I don't care.  I love it. As I write this, I feel lucky by Mary Chapin Carpenter came on.  I am not a big Country music fan, but I love that song.  I had to stop typing and just sing along. Here's the video if you want to join in.

Now that feels a lot better.  I don't exclusively listen to happy go lucky music.  Right now, Reptile by Creaming Jesus is on and I am singing along to it too.

Both songs work for me, but I have always been a Goth at heart.  Neither of these may work for you, and that's fine.  Find what works for you, and embrace it.  We have to take moments to refuel or we can't complain when we inevitably run out of gas.

Light from Within

Light also comes from within us. This isn't where I tell you that you have an ineffable light deep down inside you and you have to let it shine.  You do, we all do, but that isn't what I am talking about right now.

There are things you do that are uniquely you that can fight back the darkness when it comes for you.

It might be your sense of humor, or wit, or a quirk in your perspective that comes from a very honest and vulnerable place.  This light can be the hardest to find and harness, but it is key to fighting off the darkness.

For me, this is my imagination. Whether I let myself day dream for a minute, rework a old myth into a new story, or just wander through some old memories, I find strength in the words and images arising from my unconscious mind.  That is why the first thing that I struggle with in dark times is my ability to imagine.

When you find that unique thing inside you, learn how to harness it to make yourself stronger.

Today's Task

Find one thing that refuels you and makes you feel alive and do it for no less than 15 minutes.

I am going to give a private concert to my dog and cat, and to his chagrin my husband who is working out of the house today.  What are you going to do?

Stay with me, a Bad Wolf Fantasy. Love fights forever.

Who doesn't need a song of unrequited love in their life.  This song has a power and heart that reverberates through me.

Bad Wolf is one of those rare bands that speaks to my heart in a way few ever have.  They are raising money right now to go into the studio to record a new EP, and I would love you to help them.

I donated the second I found out about the campaign, and I hope you will too.  If you don't have the money to give, then at least spread the word.  Great music and art needs our support.  Donate here in you can.

Welcome to a Better World powered by Bad Wolf and Traci Hines

It is not as easy as it used to be to get me into new bad.  So many sound a like, but when I discovered Bad Wolf in 2012, my ears perked up.

You all know me, I love strong female vocalist, but there is something very special about this band.  Their music is filled with longing and power; sweetness, light, and shadows. 

Right now, they need our help.  They want to go into the studio and record a new EP, but studio time is not cheap.  They have set up an Indigogo campaign (here). 

Please give them your support.  Either donate or share the campaign.


This may be the single, greatest mash up video I have ever seen.  Take the cast of Super Smash Brothers, and cast them in Star Wars.  Link is Luke, Gannon is Vader, Mario is Han, and Donkey Kong is Chewbacca.

I need this game.  I need it now, not later.  Lego Star Wars was fun, but I will buy a WiiYou just to play this game.

DJ Earworm's United State of Pop 2013 (Living the Fantasy)

Every year, DJ Earworm mashes up of the most popular songs in the US.  Living the Fantasy is proof that this year's 25 biggest hits were so much better than last years.

World Go Boom from 2011 is still my favorite year in review, but well, music has been degenerating a lot lately.

I just wish at least 1 Snoop Lion song made the mix this year.  Is there a song you think should have been a bigger hit than it was?

Titus Jones Mashup- My First 3 Way

Titus Jones has a knack for making fun mash ups.  This is one of my favorites from him because it makes me laugh every time I hear it.  Pantos T makes really good mashup videos.  There's something about seeing the original videos cut to Titus is mash up that makes the song even funnier.  Especially, the parts with Journey.

Chow Down at Chick-fil-a

While hate is an awful thing, you have to ask yourself, what do you do about it?

From my experience, the best thing is to return hate with love.  People hate the LGBT community because they are afraid of us.  It's true.  They fear difference of any kind, and we are a violation of their beloved gender stereotypes.

They want to return to the Leave it to Beaver world of the Husband as patriarch and bread winner, wife in the kitchen, and obedient children.  Homosexuality is a direct threat to that.  We defy the stereotype that boys love girls and vice versa.

They just need to get used to us, Drag Queens and all.

Foo Fighters smack down the Haters

**The Videos in this post are Not Safe for Work**

There are people in this world who have absolutely no sense of humor.  I don't even want to say their name, but a certain group of ultra-right wing homophobes became upset when the Foo Fighters, a band with a brilliant sense of humor, released their video for Hot Bun.

The homoerotic trucker pastiche enraged these, well out of generosity, I will call them people (link), and they announced they were going to picket an upcoming Foo Fighter's concert.

So, How did the Foo Fighter's respond?

That's right, they pulled up in front of the protesters dressed in their costumes from the Hot Buns video on the bed of a truck performing a country parody of Keep it Clean that can be heard at the beginning of the video.

Brilliant! Love it.  This is the way to fight hate.  The best part of the video is watching the people who came to protesting them break out in laughter and bop along to the song.

The Muse heals the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

Trying to get an early start on the day, but it feels strange being up this early.  I feel like I should be getting ready for school, but I don't go to school any more...  strange.

Hopefully, I will be able to set a good direction for the week ahead.  I really want to get some stories about soon, but the pressure is starting to set in.  I have all the drive I ever did, but people read me now, and I don't want to disappoint them...

It is helpful that I decided to work on short stories and serials again, too many stories are fighting to get out.  I kind of need an assistant to organize all this.

Then, like my muse singing to me, Butterfly on a Wheel by The Mission (Spotify Link) starts playing.

For those who don't know the lyrics:

Silver and gold and it's growing cold
Autumn leaves lay as thick as thieves
Shivers down your spine chill you to the bone
'Cos the mandolin wind is the melody that turns
Your heart to stone

The heat of your breath carving shadows on the mist
Every angel has the wish that she's never been kissed

A broken dream haunting in your sleep
And hiding in your smile a secret you must keep
Love cuts you deep

Love breaks the wings of a butterfly on a wheel
Love breaks the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

There's no scarlet in you, lay your veil down for me
As sure as God made wine, you can't wrap your arms
Around a memory
Take warmth from me, cold Autumn winds cut sharp as
a knife
And in the dark for me, you're the candle flame that
Flickers to life

Love breaks the wings of a butterlfy on a wheel
Love will break the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

Wise men say all is fair in love and war
There's no right or wrong in the design of love
And I could only watch as the wind crushed your wings
Broken and torn crushed like the flower under the snow
And like the flower in spring
Love will rise again to heal your wings

Love heals the wings of a butterfly on a wheel
Love will heal the wings of a butterfly on a wheel

I love how something unexpected can happen and change your whole perspective. So I thought I would share some of my go to songs that make me want to write: (I really wanted to include "When I write my last song" by The Hatters, but the song is not on Youtube or iTunes, so I have to leave it out. A real shame that)

Powerglove's Saturday Morning Apocalypse

Start with Danny Elfman's Batman theme + Heavy Metal + 8 bit platformer = Epic Fun!

I have not laughed that hard in a really long time.

Did they stop at Batman? No!  They covered all the classic:

Their cover of the X-men theme is amazing, and the Transformers, wow.  I feel guilty I didn't know about this sooner. 

Thanks to Badass Nerd for sharing the video.  This is in rotation for me now.

Rise Against the Hate

I really needed a song like this when I was in High School:

I have been on the fence about Rise against.  I like some of their songs, but this one pushed me over the edge.  I was bullied for being gay in High School by a large "christian" group that I refuse to speak the name of, I don't want to give griefers publicity.  They used to throw things at me, call me anti-christ, and harass me.

I understand the pain, but it really does get better.  Keep your chin up, and fight back.  Life is worth it.