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Feeling Alive

My own picture of Meat Loaf Live in New York, ...
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Feeling alive is a big part of authentically being ourselves.  Everyone of us has something that makes us feel alive.

When I started writing this, Everything louder than Everything Else by Meatloaf from Bat Out of Hell II: Back into Hell came on.  I love it when serendipity lends a helping hand.

If the thrill is gone then its time to take it back

I know that I will never be politically correct And I don’t give a damn about my lack of etiquette As far as I’m concerned the world could still be flat And if the thrill is gone then its time to take it back If the thrill is gone then its time to take it back Who am i? Why am I here? Forget the questions someone get me another beer

It is so easy to get caught up in the big questions.  We get distracted from living in the search for purpose and meaning.  I know what you are thinking, didn’t say that we want meaning and purpose?  that those are prerequisites for happiness?

Yes!  But we will never find those things by sitting around trying to figure out what they are.

It is more important to live authentically than to be able to describe who you are in words.

It is more important to follow your bliss than to sit around trying to figure out why you are here?

While those are important questions, the answers are learned through action, and not thought.

You gotta learn to dance

Whats the meaning of life? Whats the meaning of it all? You gotta learn to dance Before you learn to crawl You gotta learn to dance Before you learn to crawl

I experience by bliss and live in passion most profoundly when I:

  • Am telling stories.
  • Attending conventions.
  • Listening to music.
  • Dancing.
  • Watching movies and series that matter to me.

I didn’t figure this out by sitting around and thinking about, but through doing it.

I started DMing AD&D in middle school.  I loved telling stories so much that I wrote my first novel in 8th grade, my second by 12th.  My third and fourth about 2 years apart.  I never would have learned how much I loved to tell stories if it wasn’t for AD&D and Vampire: The Masquerade.

I am mortally afraid of public speaking.  I never would have started this blog and our podcasts if Shore Leave hadn’t put me on a GLBT in Fandom panel, forcing me to do it.  I enjoyed it, and starting blogging and podcasting shortly there after.

The lesson is:  We discover our passions by doing things that make us feel alive.

If you are curious about something, try it.  If you enjoy it, keep doing it.

Army of the Night

So sign up, all you raw recruits Throw away those designer suits You got your weapons cocked, your targets in your sights There’s a party raging, somewhere in the world You gotta serve your country, gotta service your girl You’re all enlisted in the army of the night

Consider this your draft notice!  Somewhere, someone is doing something that will enrich your life to a degree you cannot even imagine.

  • Find it
  • Figure out what about it you love
  • Discover your passion
  • Find ways to do more of it

Take it from someone who knows.  Authentic living is better than any other high.

I aint in it for…

And I ain’t in it for the power And I ain’t in it for my health I ain’t in it for the glory of anything at all And I sure ain’t in it for the wealth But I’m in it ‘til it’s over And I just can’t stop If you want to get it done, you have to do it yourself And I like my music like I like my life Everything louder than everything else

Always remember what you are doing it for.  It isn’t money or power or fame.  It is because your heart beats to the rhythm of that drum, and you have to keep the party going.

Life is for the living!  If we are not alive, we need to find that spark and ignite it again!

Acting our Age

They say I’m wild and I’m reckless I should be acting my age I’m an impressionable child In a tumultuous world And they say I’m at a difficult stage

But it seems to me to the contrary Of all the crap they’re gonna put on the page That a wasted youth is better by far Then a wise and productive old age

I really truly believe that if we follow our bliss and live our passions, we have actually set ourselves in accord with the cosmos.  We are doing what we are here on this earth to do.

Everything in life is a challenge.  Are we going to move forward or move back.  If moving forward requires us to sell out who we are at our very core, then that is the wrong path.

A youthful spirit and a mature intellect are the most valuable tool we could have in life.  Don’t let anyone take them from you, and NEVER give them up!

The three I admire most…

If you want my views of history Then there’s something you should know The three men I admire most Are Curly, Larry, Moe Don’t worry about the future Sooner or later it’s the past If they say the thrill is gone then its time to take it back If the thrill is gone then its time to take it back

Now that you have discovered your passion, see if you can find a couple people who make a living doing that and study how they do it.  Establish a plan, and work toward achieving it.

Everything louder than everything else

Now is the time to just sing along!

So sign up, all you raw recruits Throw away those two bit suits You got your weapons cocked, your targets in your sights There's a party raging, somewhere in the world You gotta serve your country, gotta service your girl Youre all inducted in the army of the night And I aint in it for the power And I aint in it for my health I aint in it for the glory of anything at all And I sure aint in it for the wealth But Im in it til its over And I just cant stop If you want to get it done, you got to fight for yourself And I like my music like I like my life Everything louder than everything else

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Acceptability/Assimilation Will not Keep Us Safe

Within fandom, as with the mainstream culture, assimilation into an ‘acceptable person’ is not a way to be safe. For years I have participated in the panels and sundry other discussions about whether GLBT fans should blend into the background, or whether we should be more vocal, and make our presence known and felt. It was a struggle at first, but eventually we came to believe the price of silence too high for us to pay.

In other words, those who were naturally straight-acting, were encouraged not to change their persona at fan events, and those of us who were a bit more obvious in our sexual orientation and gender identity were encouraged to be ourselves. The only exception we stressed was for cosplay (dressing in costume and pretending you are what you are dressed as).

While we always used common sense, we found it was best to be open and upfront about our orientation and identity. The vast majority of negative experiences I have had at fan events were when someone found out I am gay, and felt like I had hidden it from them.

I am very inappropriate

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I am more inappropriate and direct with people then the average person, and will often introduce myself: “Hello, I am Eric, and I am a gay man, may I presume you are heterosexual.”

It usually gets a laugh, and will often open the door for people to understand the awkward position GLBT people are placed in by society. If we are not open about our identity or orientation, it is assumed we were hiding it.

You don’t have to be as upfront as I am, but be careful not to lead people into believing you are covering it up. This self-serving sense of betrayal is often used as a thin veil to excuse a person’s homophobia. “Well, I just don’t know who you are anymore.” Whoever you are, always be yourself, be open, and be honest.

Klingon Drag Queen

Last year, our first klingon drag queen attended Shore Leave. She was stunning and took the time to make each piece of the costume by hand to express her gender identity and passion for klingons. Unfortunately, she also experienced an inordinate amount of sneers and cat calls as she went through the convention.

Our group also features a number of male-to-female transgenders who often come in costume. They have not faced some of the same hurdles the rest of the community have. When I talked to one who asked to remain anonymous, she told me that her biggest problem at the conventions were that people assumed she merely wore a costume.

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Project: Shadow Newsletter August

Hey everyone! Project:Shadow HQ is now up to 41 members! Thanks to everyone who is spreading the word, great job! If you haven't already invited your friends to join the party send them an e-vite AT http://rurl.org/bol or put a Project:Shadow HQ badge http://rurl.org/bom on your web site, blog or MySpace profile!

Shore Leave

Shore Leave was Wonderful this year.  we had a great time and really enjoyed getting to visit with HQ Members there.  Eric has a full write up over at dashPunk.com

Shine Like Thunder

Shine Like Thunder the book is out!  By C. E. Dorsett, Shine Like Thunder is the first book in the Tales of the Silver fox series in the rich and deep setting the Barrens End.  For more info http://TalesOfTheSilverFox.com

Get your shopping done with us at ProjectShadow.com/shop. We set up a store so that you can get your shopping done in one stop, stores include Amazon, Hot Topic, and Sharper Image. Not only is it convent but it also helps to support our work here at Project: Shadow. We also have cool t-shirts, posters, and other merchandise available.

The Blog Has a New Look!

We did a full overhaul of the Project: Shadow Blog.  "we can rebuild him. We have the technology. We have the capability..." and so we did.  the Project: Shadow Blog is now called dashPunk.com.

Project: Shadow Podcast

Covering SF news and opionions, for fans by fans. Listen Live, daily, on TalkShoe http://rurl.org/a8j. Subscribe to the podcast and get the show notes at ProjectShadowInformant.com.

Project: Shadow Informant

Liquid Sky Chapbooks are Out!

The four chapbooks are out for Liquid Sky.  For More Legendsofthejademoon.com.  The Book titles are The Child Of Centuries, Dividing Souls, Back from the Dawn, Nemesis

What is on YOUR mind

Thanks to all of the members who have shared with us your latest comments?  Thanks to Ryan who started the discussion asking about "The other side of history..."  The full discussion is at http://snurl.com/3bsb7.  If you have a topic that you would love to discuss with the group the Forum is your place.

Supporting Project:Shadow helps us to bring you more and better content projectshadow.com/supportus/index.htm!

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Success as a Blogger/Writer

Darren Rowse's post, A Secret to Sustain Yourself as a Blogger at Problogger.net forced me to answer the questions, Who is a successful blogger? and When have I achieved success? It reminded me of a conversation... disagreement... ok, it was more of a confrontation I had with A. C. Crispin at the last writers' breakfast I was invited to at Shore Leave 28. She informed me that I was not a "real writer," and I responded that I was

  • a real writer when I first put pen to paper
  • a successful writer when I finished my first book
  • a published writer the moment the book was in print

I would be a bestselling writer when I had a book on a bestseller chart. Well, Fate's Harrow has hit number 1 on the Amazon Charts several times.

I feel the same way about blogging, I am

  • a real blogger when I set up the blog
  • a successful blogger ever time a post to the blog
  • a good blogger because the things I blog about interest other people (no matter if that is 1 other or a million)

I will be

  • a financially successful blogger when the blog makes up a significant proportion of my income
  • a great blogger when I have rallied a vibrant community of contributers and commenters to the blog

Numbers mean less than nothing to me. Would I like to have millions of readers? Sure, but I would much rather have a group of readers that share the same interests as I do and who help me find more stories that I am interested in and help me by challenging my views and opinions on the subjects I blog about. (which I already have)

I think most people stop blogging because they learn that

  • they are too private or introverted to share their lives and opinions with a world of people they do not know.
  • they discover that it is a lot of time, work, and effort to find topics to talk about on a regular basis
  • they find out that this is not the easiest and quickest way to become a celebrity or millionaire
  • they get the harsh criticism that people feel they can give you when you do anything in a public forum.

Some people just love to complain. At the book launch party for my first book Liquid Sky, people came up to me to tell me how much they hated my books... Really? What books? Do you mean the one that just came out today or the ones that you imagine that I have written so you could enhance your own sense of superiority? These are the people who just long to complain.

Blogging, like writing, is something you either enjoy or not. For some people, it is almost a compulsion. If you enjoy it, then do it. It is important to know why you are blogging, then hold onto that reason.

I blog because I enjoy the conversation, and I want to have as many as I possibly can.

Atrium Collapses At Maryland Embassy Suites Hotel

One of the Skylights in the Atrium in Hunt Valley, MD, has collapsed (cbs4.com (or see video here))! There are no reports of injuries, but wow. I was just there in July for the Shoreleave convention. I have stayed there more times than I can count. It is a little freaky seeing it on the news for something like this. As much as they charge for the rooms, you would think they could prevent things like this from happening. Wow, I am glad we have already booked rooms at the Marriott for the conventions next year.

I will be following this story closely. If I hear anything else I will update you. I hope the reports on no injuries are true.

... and I hope the fish are ok too.

[Discuss Hotel and Convention Safety here]

(from my HQ Blog)

Back from Shore Leave

C.E. Dorsett Shore Leave was amazing this year! This was my first convention since Liquid Sky came out, and it was wonderful!

Friday, July 7, 2006

Things were a bit confused when we arrived early on Friday. Since my panel was confirmed little over a week before the convention, no one knew what my status at the Con would be. When I received my badge, they gave me a regular attendee pass and didn't know if I would be included in any other events at the convention. I felt a great deal of support from the other attendees who supported and accepted me immediately upon my arrival. After being bounced around to several people, I got my badge fixed. They attached a program participant notice to the bottom, hopefully I will earn a guest badge in the future. I was also welcomed at the "Meet the Pros" writers' alley later that night.

The first book I sold a copy of Liquid Sky too at Shore Leave was to the wonderful people from Selmak.org. They were a great deal of fun, and good people to boot. They took a picture of me with Selmak, and I am told it will be up on their site soon.

I met a lot of wonderful people Friday night, and that night, I was seated on the "Meet the Pros" writers' alley next to Ray Villard!! As a science geek, this was like sitting next to a rock star. This man has done so much to bring science alive in my imagination and countless others.

Being there, surrounded by all of these writers that I have admired for so long was an amazing experience. After so many years on the other side of the table, I was privileged and overwhelmed. Everyone did so much to make me feel at home and at ease among so many great writers. I have to add here, Paulette, if you read this, I really enjoyed our conversation and I hope you enjoy the book.

Saturday, July 8

After such an amazing day, I was afraid of what I would find on my full day at the convention. Quickly, I found my fears were nothing but jitters. I met many wonderful people really early on. Mark, it was great to talk to you. I really felt like I met kindred spirit in you.

A high point for me was the Gay Fandom: a melding of two communities panel. I was happy to see so many GLBT people coming out to discuss the good and the bad aspects of the portrayal of GLBT people and themes in SciFi media and press. This is a subject near and dear to my heart, especially since I have found it so difficult to publish any of my stories with prominent GLBT characters and themes. I also hope to begin a relationship with Dragon Lady Productions.

That night, I met Martin and Teresa, two very cool people who hung out for the rest of the night with me. Cheers y'all.

My panel, "Anime Themes in Literature" spent most of our time discussing the differences between Japanese and American SF, and the difference being more one of style effecting content, and not content in and of itself. My thesis was simple. Japanese SF is focused more on telling and imaginative story whereas American SF is preoccupied with the definition of "odd things" as odd. Maybe I'll write an essay for the site. The panel went well.

Sunday, July 9

I got to attend the Writer's Only Breakfast! I sat next to A.C. Crispin, who is one of the reasons I became a writer. She offered me a lot of good advice, and really made me feel like a novice. She was blunt in her comments, but her words will hopefully help me as I shop "Shine like Thunder" around.

Our Breakfast was accidentally paid for by a representative from Pocket Books. A.C. Crispin became enraged, while Brian and I slipped out.

Other Notes

In short, Brian and I had a great time. Our reception at Shore Leave was amazing. I hope all of the people who we met will stay in touch. I hope you all enjoy the book and I hope to see you all next year.

After consultation with a good deal of people, we have decided to make Liquid Sky into the first Audiobook available from Podiobooks.com. I hope to have it ready soon.

Thanks to everyone who made our time at Shore Leave so enjoyable.

Back from Shore Leave

C.E. Dorsett Shore Leave was amazing this year! This was my first convention since Liquid Sky came out, and it was wonderful!

Friday, July 7, 2006

Things were a bit confused when we arrived early on Friday. Since my panel was confirmed little over a week before the convention, no one knew what my status at the Con would be. When I received my badge, they gave me a regular attendee pass and didn't know if I would be included in any other events at the convention. I felt a great deal of support from the other attendees who supported and accepted me immediately upon my arrival. After being bounced around to several people, I got my badge fixed. They attached a program participant notice to the bottom, hopefully I will earn a guest badge in the future. I was also welcomed at the "Meet the Pros" writers' alley later that night.

The first book I sold a copy of Liquid Sky too at Shore Leave was to the wonderful people from Selmak.org. They were a great deal of fun, and good people to boot. They took a picture of me with Selmak, and I am told it will be up on their site soon.

I met a lot of wonderful people Friday night, and that night, I was seated on the "Meet the Pros" writers' alley next to Ray Villard!! As a science geek, this was like sitting next to a rock star. This man has done so much to bring science alive in my imagination and countless others.

Being there, surrounded by all of these writers that I have admired for so long was an amazing experience. After so many years on the other side of the table, I was privileged and overwhelmed. Everyone did so much to make me feel at home and at ease among so many great writers. I have to add here, Paulette, if you read this, I really enjoyed our conversation and I hope you enjoy the book.

Saturday, July 8

After such an amazing day, I was afraid of what I would find on my full day at the convention. Quickly, I found my fears were nothing but jitters. I met many wonderful people really early on. Mark, it was great to talk to you. I really felt like I met kindred spirit in you.

A high point for me was the Gay Fandom: a melding of two communities panel. I was happy to see so many GLBT people coming out to discuss the good and the bad aspects of the portrayal of GLBT people and themes in SciFi media and press. This is a subject near and dear to my heart, especially since I have found it so difficult to publish any of my stories with prominent GLBT characters and themes. I also hope to begin a relationship with Dragon Lady Productions.

That night, I met Martin and Teresa, two very cool people who hung out for the rest of the night with me. Cheers y'all.

My panel, "Anime Themes in Literature" spent most of our time discussing the differences between Japanese and American SF, and the difference being more one of style effecting content, and not content in and of itself. My thesis was simple. Japanese SF is focused more on telling and imaginative story whereas American SF is preoccupied with the definition of "odd things" as odd. Maybe I'll write an essay for the site. The panel went well.

Sunday, July 9

I got to attend the Writer's Only Breakfast! I sat next to A.C. Crispin, who is one of the reasons I became a writer. She offered me a lot of good advice, and really made me feel like a novice. She was blunt in her comments, but her words will hopefully help me as I shop "Shine like Thunder" around.

Our Breakfast was accidentally paid for by a representative from Pocket Books. A.C. Crispin became enraged, while Brian and I slipped out.

Other Notes

In short, Brian and I had a great time. Our reception at Shore Leave was amazing. I hope all of the people who we met will stay in touch. I hope you all enjoy the book and I hope to see you all next year.

After consultation with a good deal of people, we have decided to make Liquid Sky into the first Audiobook available from Podiobooks.com. I hope to have it ready soon.

Thanks to everyone who made our time at Shore Leave so enjoyable.