Favorite Songs from 1995

I don’t usually give in to memes like this, but when I saw it on Jadielady’s blog, I thought it looked like fun.  The rules are simple:

A) Go to Music Outfitters B) Enter the year you graduated from high school in the search function and get the list of 100 most popular songs of that year C) Bold the songs you like, strike through the ones you hate and underline or italicize your favorite. Do nothing to the ones you don’t remember (or don’t care about)

1. Gangsta's Paradise, Coolio 2. Waterfalls, TLC 3. Creep, TLC 4. Kiss From A Rose, Seal 5. On Bended Knee, Boyz II Men 6. Another Night, Real McCoy 7. Fantasy, Mariah Carey 8. Take A Bow, Madonna 9. Don't Take It Personal (Just One Of Dem Days), Monica 10. This Is How We Do It, Montell Jordan 11. I Know, Dionne Farris 12. Water Runs Dry, Boyz II Men 13. Freak Like Me, Adina Howard 14. Run-Around, Blues Traveler 15. I Can Love You Like That, All-4-One 16. Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman?, Bryan Adams 17. Always, Bon Jovi 18. Boombastic/In The Summertime, Shaggy 19. Total Eclipse Of The Heart, Nicki French 20. You Gotta Be, Des'ree 21. You Are Not Alone, Michael Jackson 22. Hold My Hand, Hootie and The Blowfish 23. One More Chance-Stay With Me, Notorious B.I.G. 24. Here Comes The Hotstepper, Ini Kamoze 25. Candy Rain, Soul For Real 26. Let Her, w Hootie and The Blowfish 27. I Believe, Blessid Union Of Souls 28. Red Light Special, TLC 29. Runaway, Janet Jackson 30. Strong Enough, Sheryl Crow 31. Colors Of The Wind, Vanessa Williams 32. Someone To Love, Jon B. 33. Only Wanna Be With You, Hootie and The Blowfish 34. If You Love Me, Brownstone 35. In The House Of Stone And Light, Martin Page 36. I Got 5 On It, Luniz 37. Baby, Brandy 38. Run Away, Real McCoy 39. As I Lay Me Down, Sophie B. Hawkins 40. He's Mine, Mokenstef 41. December, Collective Soul 42. I'll Be There For You-You're All I Need To Get By, Method Man-Mary J. Blige 43. Shy Guy, Diana King 44. I'm The Only One, Melissa Etheridge 45. Every Little Thing I Do, Soul For Real 46. Before I Let You Go, BLACKstreet 47. Big Poppa/Warning, Notorious B.I.G. 48. Sukiyaki, 4 P.M. 49. I Wanna Be Down, Brandy 50. I'll Make Love To You, Boyz II Men 51. Dear Mama/Old School, 2Pac 52. Hold On, Jamie Walters 53. Keep Their Heads Ringin', Dr. Dre 54. The Rhythm Of The Night, Corona 55. Roll To Me, Del Amitri 56. Scream/Childhood, Michael Jackson and Janet Jackson 57. Freek'n You, Jodeci 58. I Wish, Skee-lo 59. Believe, Elton John 60. Carnival, Natalie Merchant 61. You Don't Know How It Feels, Tom Petty 62. Back For Good, Take That 63. Tootsee Roll, 69 Boyz 64. You Want This-70's Love Groove, Janet Jackson 65. Tell Me, Groove Theory 66. Can't You See, Total 67. All I Wanna Do, Sheryl Crow 68. This Lil' Game We Play, Subway 69. Come And Get Your Love, Real McCoy 70. This Ain't A Love Song, Bon Jovi 71. Secret, Madonna 72. Player's Anthem, Junior M.A.F.I.A. 73. Feel Me Flow, Naughty By Nature 74. Every Day Of The Week, Jade 75. The Sweetest Days, Vanessa Williams 76. Short Dick Man, 20 Fingers Featuring Gillette 77. Brokenhearted, Brandy 78. No More "I Love You's", Annie Lennox 79. You Used To Love Me, Faith Evans 80. Constantly, Immature 81. Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me, U2 82. 100% Pure Love, Crystal Waters 83. Ask Of You, Raphael Saadiq 84. Sugar Hill, Az 85. Good, Better Than Ezra 86. Brown Sugar, D'angelo 87. Turn The Beat Around, Gloria Estefan 88. 'Til You Do Me Right, After 7 89. 1st Of Tha Month, Bone Thugs-N-Harmony 90. Like The Way I Do If I Wanted To, Melissa Etheridge 91. I Live My Life For You, Firehouse 92. Dream About You-Funky Melody, Stevie B 93. Cotton Eye Joe, Rednex 94. Thank You, Boyz II Men 95. I'll Stand By You, Pretenders 96. I Miss You, N II U 97. Give It 2 You, Da Brat 98. Best Friend, Brandy 99. Misery, Soul Asylum 100. Can't Stop Lovin' You, Van Halen

Life as a Story

I went out to write at the San Francisco Bread Company today. The longer I write, the more I realize how important it is to get out of the house, even if it is only to sequester myself at a small table in a cafe with my headphones on listening to music, surfing the web, struggling with new concepts and editing a book I wrote that I actual enjoy reading. It is odd how something as simple as a change of venue from my office to a cafe can change my mood and energy level, but I have read enough from other writers to know that I am not alone.

I have a theory about why something as simple as a change of venue can so profoundly effect a writer's mood.

I started writing as a defense mechanism. As a child, I grew up on a farm miles from the closet kid my age. I spent most of my time either on the phone, outside with my dog Red, or in my room inventing new stories with my Voltron and He-man action figures. When this wasn't enough, I started drawing crude comics and playing out a sort of paper theater with playing cards and my imagination. Through all this, my imagination was fueled by He-man, She-ra, Transformers, the books of Edgar Allen Poe and Mark Twain, and the fantasy world of Dungeons & Dragons. I didn't have anyone to play with, so I spent my time making up stories about these fantastical creatures, demigods, and demons. The music of Kiss and Dolly Pardon filled my nights in my room watching "Too Close for Comfort" dreaming of the day I would write my own "Cosmic Cow" strip.

When we moved to Maryland, things got worse. I had a strong accent, which got me beaten up in school a lot, and I had not people skills so the few friends I did make really had to work hard to get past my clumsy social interactions. I didn't know how to relate with these "people." They were so different from me, and they expected me to know how to act with them. I just didn't.

My salvation came through The Legend of Zelda, Final Fantasy, and my knowledge of Dungeons & Dragons. I played these games with them as a means of interacting. They gave a structure to our together time and gave me a common language to speak. In time, we added Marvel Superheroes, Robotech, Earthdawn, and the many classic White Wolf storyteller games- Vampire: The Masquerade, Were-wolf, Mage: The Ascension, Changeling: The Dreaming. In fact, I became friends with Brian through a Vampire Chronicle.

Through this role as the storyteller, Star Trek Fandom, and my near obsessive interest in music, I found my medium to talk to others.

Storytelling is who I am. It is how I comprehend the world and explains why I am so deeply involved with the works of Joseph Campbell. This is who I am for better or worse. From the many biographies about other writers I have read, I think we have all taken up the life of a storyteller as some sort of defense mechanism or way to make sense of the world. It is easier to lock yourself away from the world than to jump in and struggle within it.

When I force myself out of my cave, even if only to isolate myself from the settings I find myself in through headphones and work, it reminds me that the outside world is still there. It lets me see how people actually interact with each other, for better or worse, and on those rarest of occasions, allows me to have incredible conversations with people face to face.

It is hard to explain how isolating is can be at times to be a storyteller. The hours, days and weeks spent locked away from the world crafting a reality that I hope others will experience and enjoy with the same fervor that I do. The simple act of seeing other people and hearing other voices enlivens me.

Like other writers, I am an observer of life much more than I am a participant in it. These little glimpses of the world outside my friends and family and the characters I write about (feels more like with sometimes), grounds me and helps connect me with the bigger world that is so easy to let slip away.

I wish more people shared this experience. Looking out at this world of strangers that I may or may not ever see again, and watching the plots they have entwined themselves in. We all tell our own stories. That is the art of conversation, to weave an entertaining tale about ourselves and others. As these plot lines co-mingle and intertwine, the story of our family, friends, city, state and nation are told. These stories often matter more than the facts. (whether or not that should be true or not is a whole other discussion).

I recommend that you give this a try. Next time you are out with friends, watch the stories that you are telling each other closely and follow them out as if they are plot lines in a novel, movie, or television show. It is startling how often you can predict other peoples actions by listening to their backstory, current plot, and projecting that out as it would play out in the genre appropriate to the person. I am not saying that this is always the case, but more often than not you will be able to see what will happen before it does. This is also the best way to choose your course of action. How will your action effect the other all story. Try it out, I think you might be pleasantly surprised.

Project:Shadow 2007 December Newsletter

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***Eric received a great write up for his novel Legends of the Jade Moon Book One: Liquid Sky here is an excerpt for your enjoyment.

Downwarden com Review by Nick Crabowsky

...What we have here is indeed science fiction ala Dune, though less detailed but just as vividly portrayed. Dorsett deserves praise for the execution of a story less intimidating for one more inclined to read other genres which require far less brain power to understand, breaks through those barriers and develops a narrative which renders a glossary needless and pretty much explains itself as is without asserting its vast mythology in explanatory rhetoric.

I enjoyed the damn thing. I think C.E. Dorsett is one powerhouse of imagination, inspired obviously by the greats of his craft. Liquid Sky is full of mysticism and spirituality, of themes centered on the search for one’s inner self and the meaning of the universe around him, where a youthful monk with adopted parents finds himself catapulted into an interstellar journey fueled by the death of the one he called Father and driven at odds by the results of saving him, by mysterious truth-sayers who aren’t what they seem and personal intuition telling him he’s destined to amount to something greater than himself and the savior of worlds. Ianus’ adventures and intrigue are entertaining and don’t smother us in the sort of over-explanation I’d read in other novels like this one. Liquid Sky is an extremely intelligent, very readable and delightful piece of work, and I’m glad to recommend it...



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***Brian posted a review of the Story Black Moon Rising here is a copy of it.

Wow! This is a great story!   5 stars (must own)

The story picks up from where we left off with Adir Radd in the hospital tortured by his visions of the future. I was caught up in Adir’s haunting vision.  It is written so viscerally I could almost hear the screams and smell the stink coming off of the battle field. This heart felt tale took me through the events and choices that led Dov Lavan to become the famed villain I knew him to be from reading Liquid Sky: Legends of the Jade Moon  The choices and motivations of Dov were very compelling. Reading his tale turned him into a compassionate and sad character. I could empathize with his frustrations and found myself thinking that if I were caught up in the same situation I would probably make the same choices. The conclusion was extremely rewarding even though I knew how the story would end I still found myself shocked, surprised and brought to tears with a beautiful, rewarding ending. To be cliché for a minute I literally laughed, cringed and cried while reading this.

Dark Moon Rising is the second installment of C. E. Dorsett’s Fates Harrow series which covers three historical characters in the Barren’s End setting. Their tale was first told in the book Liquid Sky: Legends of the Jade Moon but from the Jade Moon’s perspective.

In this episode Dov Lavan fears loosing his friends and culture, longing to save the ones he cares about he takes on a new master who promises to help him lead his people into a safer future. Dov rises to power, forming a new group, encouraging others to join him and stand for freedom. But, his childhood friends Tien Shaa and Adir Radd are concerned with the fire in Dov’s rhetoric, so they set out to try and stop the coming war.

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